Oh my goodness! I don’t know why I proceed to be shocked by the large emotions on the primary day of faculty, however right here I’m as soon as once more, sitting at my desk with dried tears on my cheeks and a swirl of feelings in my chest.
For the final two weeks, I’ve been solely centered on supporting and constructing Connor as much as get her prepared for second grade. In between chaperoning playdates and adventures along with her lady gang, there’ve been a number of “I don’t need to return to high school” moments, with plenty of tears and hugs.
The previous few days have been spent making ready, planning and making an attempt to get her braced for the primary day. We’ve packed baggage, talked about issues to look ahead to, deliberate outfits — I’ve at all times believed that in the event you’re anxious a couple of transition that it at all times helps to organize as a lot as you may, in order that’s what we did.
When El Hub and I walked her to her classroom this morning, she was in good spirits — just a little nervous however nonetheless cheerful. After she dropped off her backpack and stated hello to her trainer, she walked into the classroom with out wanting again. No tears in any respect, which was nice!
As soon as we walked away from the classroom, although, I cried, which I didn’t count on in any respect. You already know that pal you may have who is okay till she’s not? That’s me, LOL!
It’s the depth of the sentiments that shock me. What I do know deep down is that in the future she actually received’t want me; she’ll stroll by a door and received’t look again, and despite the fact that logically I do know that’ll be a great factor, a part of me is having a tough time accepting it.
So, I attempt to joyfully be current for the transient time I’ve along with her. One of many unusual blessings that comes with having a toddler in your 40s is that you simply develop into so conscious about the passing of time. I understand how rapidly these years will move. Within the blink of a watch 10 years will fly by and he or she’ll be going into her senior yr of highschool. Craziness!
Anyway, earlier than I begin crying once more, on a considerably random beauty-related word, this was the primary yr El Hub has been in a position to be dwelling for the primary day of faculty, so I had all these plans to place make-up on this morning so he may take a “proof of mother” image of me and Connor.
I ended up solely having time to do my hair and placed on tinted sunscreen, so my goals of wanting not less than semi-decent didn’t occur, LOL!
I’m going to Ulta and Sephora to purchase a gift for a pal and to do some searching to cheer myself up. If there’s something you’ve discovered these days that you simply’ve been actually into, let me know. I may use the distraction.
Ship a digital hug this manner, will ya?
Your pleasant neighborhood magnificence addict,
Karen
